Showing posts with label guilt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label guilt. Show all posts

Friday, September 23, 2011

Preschool Dilemma




  Liam has been in preschool for almost 2 months now. He seems to like it for the most part and never really complains about going. We send him to the local public preschool that I heard great things about. I don't have any complaints about it really. He seems happy, he doesn't really tell me much about it, but I know that's normal.
     I guess I'm just feeling some regret, because we did have he signed up for a Montessori school I used to teach at and I really wanted him to go there. My husband and I went back and forth about it for months. Should we or shouldn't we? Finally we decided on the public school, mainly for financial reasons. The Montessori school costs $380 a month and we might end up having to pay for grammar school, so we decided to save money now. We probably could have afforded it, it just would have been hard and we would of had to make cut backs and maybe I would of had to find a part time job. I'm not really sure how things would of worked out. Then I was thinking of my younger kids and would we be able to afford it for them especially since Declan and Rory will be in preschool at the same time. That would be $800 a month.
     I have a couple of friends that are sending their kids to the Montessori school and I just feel bad because I know all the great things they do there. I feel like maybe if he went there he would end up learning more, and he is a really bright kid (really he is I'm not just saying it because he's my son). I want him to feel challenged and I know it's only preschool, but I love Montessori and think it would have been a great fit for his personality. So, now I'm wondering if we should have just payed the extra money and sent him there. Now they are full and I wouldn't want to pull him out of his preschool anyways, but I'm just feeling a bit of regret and guilt.  Its seems like that is always a part of parenting wondering if you made the right choice and feeling bad that maybe you didn't. If I sent to the Montessori school I may be wishing I didn't if it was too hard financially. Ahhh...the neverending mom guilt, I'm sure there will be more to come soon.....